Dear Ryan-

Today is worst than most, and I’m not too sure why. I miss you. I miss us. I miss you happy. I am so just…I hurt. I hurt more than I ever hurt before. You cause me more happiness, but you cause me more pain than anything. I can’t find the words tonight. I can’t, I just hurt. I hurt. I’m hurt. I hurt. I’m hurt. I cannot say it enough. Everything reminds me of you. You spent only two nights in this bed, but it still kills me. that was almost a year ago come March. I need you here then. I really do Ry. 

-C