October 2011
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i threw away a picture of us.
and cut up a bracelt i made you that said, “Caitlin loves Ryan”
I threw away the brown box my tiffanys package came in.
Tomorrow I am going to do a clean out of my phone.
Deleting every single picture.
putting them in a file on my computer and then deleting them.
I deleted “our” songs.
I went and saw Matt and Kim and it didn’t...
April 2011
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February 2011
6 posts
Dear Ryan-
I cannot believe you…
-C
Dear Ryan-
Today is worst than most, and I’m not too sure why. I miss you. I miss us. I miss you happy. I am so just…I hurt. I hurt more than I ever hurt before. You cause me more happiness, but you cause me more pain than anything. I can’t find the words tonight. I can’t, I just hurt. I hurt. I’m hurt. I hurt. I’m hurt. I cannot say it enough. Everything...
Dear Ryan-
Laying on my bed doing homework, watching horrible movies. I miss you more than words could possibly say. I miss hearing your heart-beat as I lay my head upon your chest. I miss the life I could hear and feel. Because right now, I feel far from life. I need you so much closer. But for now, this will have to do.
-C
“Love wins. Love always wins.”
– Tuesdays With Morrie - Mitch Albom (via quote-book)
Dear Ryan-
You hurt me to the point of no return. I want to hate you, but I can’t. I’m sorry.
-C
Dear Ryan-
As night time comes, as it does every night, I miss you more and more. I miss everything about you. To the point it hurts emotionally and physically. To feel your warm embrace, or slow dance in our underwear to the dead silence, or even if it be just lay on your bed. To be with you, brings greater joy to my heart than I could ever imagine. Our past memories help me sleep at night, yet...